A Chronicle Wherein Lila ("My Girl") Contests With The Cancer...
...And I try to help...
...Or at least not get in the way...
Sunday, July 6, 2008
A Poetic Interlude: Pablo Neruda
If You Forget Me
I want you to know one thing.
You know how this is: if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch of the slow autumn at my window, if I touch near the fire the impalpable ash or the wrinkled body of the log, everything carries me to you, as if everything that exists, aromas, light, metals, were little boats that sail toward those isles of yours that wait for me.
Well, now, if little by little you stop loving me I shall stop loving you little by little.
If suddenly you forget me do not look for me, for I shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad, the wind of banners that passes through my life, and you decide to leave me at the shore of the heart where I have roots, remember that on that day, at that hour, I shall lift my arms and my roots will set off to seek another land.
But if each day, each hour, you feel that you are destined for me with implacable sweetness, if each day a flower climbs up to your lips to seek me, ah my love, ah my own, in me all that fire is repeated, in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten, my love feeds on your love, beloved, and as long as you live it will be in your arms without leaving mine.
Stage 4 Adrenal carcinoma: Adrenocortical carcinoma is a rare tumor afflicting only one or two persons per one million population. It usually occurs in adults, and the median age at diagnosis is 44 years. Although potentially curable at early stages, only 30% of these malignancies are confined to the adrenal gland at the time of diagnosis. Because these tumors tend to be found years after they began growing, they have the opportunity to invade nearby organs, spread to distant organs (metastasize) and cause numerous changes in the body because of the excess hormones they produce.
Characteristics of Adrenal Cortical Cancer Typically an aggressive cancer. Most (~60%) are found because excess hormone production causes symptoms which prompt patients to seek medical attention. (Not Lila's.) Most (60-80%) actually secrete high amounts of one or more adrenal hormones. (Not Lila's.) Many will present with pain in the abdomen and flank (nearly all that don't present with symptoms of hormone excess will seek medical attention because of pain). Spread to distant organs (metastasis) occurs most commonly to the abdominal cavity, lungs, liver, and bone.
(Note: Lila's tumor didn't present with ANY typical symptoms.It was discovered almost by accident, when it had already metastasized. The incidence of thiskind of cancer is obscenely rare: only one in one-to-three million CANCERS. Forgive my saying, "Shit, man. Ha. That sucks.")
"He's an old blind bear....alone in the winter woods...with only the smell of his breath for comfort. Too mean to die, too lost to care. But show some caution....he's still the Bear."
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